1/29/11

Finger Food Friday - Living the life takes it's toll

Hey all you weirdos,freaks and lurkers, it's that time again - time to take a trip with Fingers.

So, as many of you know I've been living the life for a long time. I spent over 6 years of my life in prison. Spent stupid money on fancy lawyers and endless fines. I've been shot 5 times trying to rob the dope man, stabbed in a fight, broken my nose, jaw, check bone and eye socket... I was a drunken drug addict for 35 years chasing dope shooting dope snorting dope and sucking down booze like they weren't going to make anymore. All the time I thought I had it going my way. Well, fuck me I was not even close. Along my travels in life one thing I really never took care of were my teeth. Between filing them down with a small jewelers file to just getting them pulled when they got too bad. When I was released from prison on 6/19/06 I had 12 teeth left in my mouth that's it - 12. And I still needed to have 2 more pulled. Well, 35 years of meth, crank, cocaine and snickers bars really didn't work out for me and my teeth. I never really thought about my teeth until they started to hurt. I remember being up for 3 days on crank spending about 3 hours in the mirror trying to pry out my fillings with a sail needle. Or another time so fucked up on PCP I had thought the feds put a wire in a molar and I ripped it out with a pair of pliers only to get a bad infection that almost cost me my life.....

Well, this week I had the great pleasure of getting the LAST 4 teeth on the top removed and now I'm sporting a denture. I knew for along time that this day was near. Let me just say that when I saw those 4 teeth sitting on the dentists work bench I was saddened to think how stupid I have been through the years to let this happen. They didn't even look like teeth - more like burnt beans black and rotten. My mouth is swollen and very fucking sore. The one truly favorite food I love - potato chips - I can't even eat yet. I know they will get easier with time and chips will be in my bowel again but it sucks to see what i have done.............

So, what do I tell people when they call me pissed off, depressed or pissing about whatever other problem they have in their life? Go for a ride. Man, I can be at life's end and that ride is the best! Dope man has nothing that beats a good ride.

My favorite ride is the one I took when I got out of prison after doing 3 years and 8 months. And I got sober. I was re-doing my 98 inch shovel named "BLIND FAITH." I took out a map and just looked at the state of New York and decided where to go. First stop was the 1000 islands - I used to go their when i was i kid. Next was Woodstock - to me that was the place where it all ended. After Woodstock nothing would be the same. As I headed home I remembered a park with a old log cabin so I headed to it. I never found that cabin but what I did find was that I forgot all the bullshit that I went through in the last 3 plus years. I never packed any tools just rolled, sleeping bag and socks oh yeah forgot my tooth brush..... being on the road by yourself is true sobriety. I met some great people that year Blind Faith ran lie a dream, thinking back on it now makes all the little things that fucked with me this week long gone................

I wish I could find some pictures of Blind Faith...

FUCK LIFE BEFORE LIFE FUCKS YOU

Fingers the Weirdo








7 comments:

DSVANDER said...

sweet chompers you got there handsome hahahaha bottom picture i might have puked a little in my mouth.............

DSTim said...

Haha.... me too..... that sick fuck kept sending me pictures from the dentist..... fuck, gnarly....... a face only Blondie could love.... haha...

DSMatt said...

What a fuckin' freak...those are some sexy new teef though!

moto said...

I'm gonna go brush.....

The FIsh said...

my ol man has a couple of good buddies sporting full dentures due to a life of hard riding and hard living.

its like a fresh start from the dentist! now they just take the dentures out when they wanna get high.

lifeisfuct-diekruzen HEAVY KLOTHING said...

same here,lost all but 8 teeth by the time i was 28. got them filed down and caps in the front,no molars left. don't judge me...

mindpill said...

great story .....all day. keep writing. thanks